Beaten but not Defeated

I'm fired, again in one month, or shud I say 3 weeks?
And though all odds are against me I can say, it wasnt my fault
But then, who would believe me? Why should I bother if someone didnt?
I've lost my job, that's it..... I give up

For 4 years I fought against the odds, dreamt of beating the system
Which I obviously couldnt, not now..... to many on my mind!
Trying to finish my Masters... writing a thesis
Trying to work full time, or a bit more
Attemting to create some start up business, helping out friends
"Doing" some politics, in the twisted moment of Dutch history
(politician killed u know.....1st time in 400 years, revolt is near)

Now I bow deep...... very deep

My parents offered me an escape, which in our culture is unique!
I'm offered to return home, shame is my part?

In my opinion I witness a twisted lesson of God.... and I feel blessed
I can taste the love of my beloved family and I can rest
Dedicate my current time to do 1 thing only
Then after a few months, inshallah I return much stronger, much wiser
So in stead of being sad, I feel happy, even though tears are in my eyes!
Dont think I cry of sadness.... it's the beauty of this life which I can see now!

Alhamdulillah